hello again, Jerusalem
the city of creatures
is alive as ever,
and I notice things
for the first time amoung the all-seeing stones.
like giant jade trees,
more than the soldiers in number -
if you can believe it there are that many
jade trees
though the same colour as the young guns,
they are far prettier. this is my first time noticing the jade trees,
because there are more distracting things
in Jerusalem than succulents... my young relationship
with the old city
is changing as I g
prayer, unromantic
his voice called me from my slumber, and
I was not as romantic about the whole thing,
which was in of itself perhaps,
a sort of prayer. for twelve hours I drooled and I snoozed,
cozy in final rest.
I mean not the final rest,
but finally I rested,
and awoke pre-dawn to the most
clear and mesmerizing voice
calling all to prayer,
except me technically,
and yet it called to me,
a prayer.
the next morning,
his voice called me from my slumber, and
I was not as roman
you held me when my body spasmed
It's this that makes the dream so true: we're in it in the flesh that is ours in the real world. It's this that reminds me that perfection exists with pain, and not without. "Breathe into me,"
she instructed me with a steady whisper. --- It was day 6. You held me when my body spasmed, whispering into my ear between the sobs uncontrollable, “I have you, take my energy, let me ground you.” --- My panic attack had been discreetly building over the week. Under the surface it ro
gifted in the wacky wild west
like when I let the good ones into my life. and love is changing the fabric of how my time on earth unfolds. Giftedness. Growing up I was told I was a small form of genius, or some variation thereof. Someone marked a few tests of mine when I was 9, and declared me to be "gifted."
A kid approaching the double-digits, I was just starting to realize the world was a place that I had to find myself in. I remember being pulled out of class one day, along with a few other peers,
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